something.

You never knew how much i loved you. You never knew how happy I was. I never knew how stupid I was to give you my heart. I knew that it had to end someday. But why so harshly? You embrace the fact that you  demolished my heart. You embrace the fact that you hurt someone...I don't think anything will ever be the same. You will just date my best friend or someone else. You won't even care how much it hurts to see you with her. Because you will love her and not me. You will care about her and not me. You will want her...and not me...I guess I deserve it because I did this to some other girl who does't deserve this kind of hell. The sad part is i don't even think it will effect you.You will smile and laugh about it because you know you are capable of having any girl you want. You have the personality to die for. The truth is those 6 cuts meant something. One of those stood for you. But..you never knew that. And I never planned on telling you because i know it will just hurt you. Were all those kind words just a cover up so I will never know the deadly truth? Or did you really mean it at the time? When it was all over,did you still mean that? Or do those feelings automatically end when you say its over?....

I need help....

Iv'e ben so sad lately...all my friends are fading away...everytime I talk to someone, they just leave....I just wish everything would be the same...I cant live like this...I love my friends so much and seeing them be depressed and leave is horrible....it hurts me so much....please, no one else leave! I beg you please! I love all of you guys and I almost lost half of my friends....I just feel like no one is there for me when I need them the most...

R.I.P. Alexis

Im so glad not to be depressed anymore. Im temporarily injured because of my best friend,Alexi's death. Rest in peace Alexis. You were like my sister and even though I was barely ever there in the end, I always loved you. And now that your gone...I can't stop crying from time to time. So many things remind me of you! Like techno,I know you loved techno...It makes me cry...You will be missed and you really should belive me because you really fucking will. I think your spirit has visited me a few times...one time I was in my room doing my homework and the door opened slowly and I shut it than a minute later,it opened slowly again. Don't be afraid to com in and go next to me. I dont bite haha! Well,ilysfm Alexis and rest in peace...bye.

Important.

To those of you who think emo is all bullshit. Apparently you don't understand what depression can do to some people. Like a broken heart feels so horrible. It's like theres maggots inside your chest eating away at your heart, slowly. And it hurts your lungs. When you breathe it's your lungs are sore. Your sides feel like someone is cutting into them and with every minute the knife goes and inch deeper.Honestly I would much rather dying then go through that. I got rid of depression. How? I realized my ex was just a peice of shit who treated me like garbage and never cared. Trust me, I used to believe I would never get over this depression. But now,I'm happy and free from this deep pain. It almost killed me. If anyone at all feels like they want to kill themself, just remember, life isn't as short as you think. It's pretty damn long. Do you want depression to rule the rest of your life or are you going to fight back?
<3 Anna

I think I cut a little too deep this time....

Fuck the word thingy for now...Last night I cut a scene dimond and a heart into my skin. It hurts like hell. :(

Video Time!!! ^-^

Okay so I'm goanna put some or a funny video. :)

That is the torrets guy yelling at cats. >:)

Ronald McGod damn Donald :)

And  this is the last video :) Enjoi! n_n

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Idk what happened in my last post.